Suicidal Void (suicidalvoid) wrote,
Suicidal Void
suicidalvoid

insomnia2

and i can't sleep tonight. i took sleeping pills, 2 big blue ones. i counted nothing but blood drops pittering on my head. but that is why i stay awake and write. alone as i always will be as sadly I was born around people, yet i will die alone. i live alone. all relationships are alone. this is a good thing. i would kill another being around them all the time. my pets don't bother me though. they never lie to me. they sit and sleep and eat and play. much like i would like to but my mind keeps me awake. even with the blue pills. i have one last dmv visit before i get my license. its been months. if all goes well i can drive again. i can stop asking others to help me over and over.
fuck the pain away.
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Ive been awake in my sleep and its making me crazy. I figured out how to seperate and go into the dream and now it wont stop.
The humans are ugly, I have a twin clone so we arent part of the race.Alone is better than being dragged into their level.
clones can be perfected, so rare a human ever is, and usually they go insane when they are.
Alone you are yourself, you can never be yourself with another.